Lies

I tell myself im strong,
but when i get butterflies,
because i think of you,
i know i cant move on.
Tell me what i did wrong,
you gave me too little time,
is time too much to ask for?
I can't be hurt any more than i already am,
Ive tried to hate you & despise you,
but my emotions wont let me,
they take control of my actions,
any other girl would just accept it and move on.
But i try to have faith in you,
im torturing myself by thinking of you,
can't you see i care?
If you don't want to hurt me,
then why not try to make it better.
I lie to myself when i say i have moved on,
but the truth is..i get sick to my stomach because you are gone.

Dreamer

I am a Dreamer,
I Dream to change the world.
Make it full of Color,
To cast out the Darkness of Society.
To be our own people,
If you are a dreamer, join me.
Start a Revolution of Dreamers,
We are going to change this world.
One leap at a time,
We will be free, with no regrets.
It's our time to glow,
Let the Sun be our guide.
As Dreamers we will shine

Breathe

Smoke to disconnect,
Smoke to feel free,
Smoke to rebel,
Smoke to be weak.
Depend on this smoke,
& see that it will love you back.
Now compare every hit you take,
with a breath of fresh air.
What get's you higher?
For me it's the atmosphere
of the cold crisp night,
or the warm blue sky so close to the bright yellow sun.
Breathe Marina.

Thanks to Corey,
          Love Marina.

Ashes of Death

You light up,
take your first hit.
Death enters your lungs,
and the feelings legit.
Every hit you take,
you pray its your last.
All hope is gone,
and your pain is trapped.
Living day by day,
hiding behind your smile.
Your soul is deteriorating,
and strength gone from inside you.
Now left with no care in the world,
the last hit burns your throat.
The Ashes of Death surround you,
stealing your last bit of hope.

Summer

I can't tell you how much i miss summer.
All those weekends taking adventures to Dexter.
It was the time of my life.
Jumping off the Bridge, and staring at the stars at night.
Listening to amazing music that Corey introduced me too.
Meeting people that i thought i could never find.
Becoming friends with Dreamers.
It's like a whole other life out there.
Graffiti under the bridge, creating our own art.
Going on boat rides, playing king of the tube.
Laughing so hard, my sides ached.
Having someone to talk to about life, and they understood you.
The train tracks were my favorite place to be, so many memories there.
Having Corey taking amazing senior pictures for me, and getting a train in the background.
So many things i miss about summer, and Dexter in general.
I'll be back soon my loves, and it will be like old times with new memories.
Dexter here i come, the summer is close and new memories are about to be made.


This is for those people i have met in Dexter. You changed my life :)

                                                             Love,
                                                                 Marina

Hate

It's a strong word isn't it?
This emotion describes all the pain you feel in one word.
I rarely ever use this in a meaningful way, but this time it applies.

I hate you.
You acted like you wanted to be together.
You let me fall for you, even in that little period of time.
I wanted to get to know you better, start something special.
But it's You who pushed me away, You hurt me.
And yet You told me You didn't want to hurt me.
Well Your a dumb ass because you already fucking did.
I thought You were better than what he would tell me about You.
He claimed You were a player, but i didn't want to believe it.
I wanted to prove to him You were better than that.
But You wouldn't let me, being the selfish person you are.
Now all You are is scum to me.
You don't give a fuck about anyone but yourself.
I got over you eventually, but i still think about what we could have been.
You couldn't hate enough to love, is that supposed to be enough?
You showed me that song, every time i listen to it, it reminds me of You.
You never needed any help, You sold me out to save yourself.
It's funny how these lyrics apply to you, Ive listened to them over 100 times.

I love the song, but now their all Dead Memories to me.
And we were never alive and we won't be born again,
But ill never survive with dead memories in my heart,
Dead Memories in my Heart.
Think about what you did to me, they dont have to be dead memories anymore
You could change that, make the memories come back to life...
But don't worry I no longer have faith in You, so i don't expect anything from You.
Now You know how i feel, so lets bury all your secrets in my skin.
                                                       Yours Truly,
                                                                Marina

What am i?

I am something that brings people together, 
Without my presence you may feel empty, 
My job is to be the closest thing to magic,
I am like a painting- i bring things to life, 
My presence can awaken long lost feelings,
I can last a lifetime- & never fade away,
I bring happiness- but can also bring heartache,
Ive traveled all over the world and back,
I have the ability to get you through anything,
I cant be one sentence- it has to be felt within, 
I put someone elses wants and needs before my own,
I am Pleasure, Passion and Patience
You feel me everyday, What am i?

Love

Love is a strong word
what does it mean to you?
To me its a way of life
You should love everything
about your life
But the sad thing is,
i don't.


You find that someone you 
enjoy spending time with,
Everything is perfect
and you want to spend 
more time with them.


Then they take that
and rip it out of your heart.
You try to talk to them,
but they already forgotten
about you. 
You tell them your feelings
and those get ignored as well.
You say you don't want to hurt me,
but don't worry 
the damage is already done.


I lay in my room thinking of you,
i wonder if you do the same.
You may be trying to save yourself,
but I'm not going anywhere.
I want a reason to forget you,
but you don't give me one.
All i hear is the excuses
"i don't wanna get hurt"
But don't worry you cant hurt me,
You've already done your job.


All i ask from you is this,
just give us a chance.
I gave up the love of my life,
for a date with you.
The lights were amazing,
i was floating on Cloud 9.
It was like a dream,
but without the nightmares.
You know that i can make you happy,
but why do you push me away?


Your being selfish,
all you think about is yourself.
All you worry about is running away.
You don't have to run anywhere,
when you could just be happy with me....


Please you know who you are,
just give me a chance to be yours. 
Because i want you to be mine. 


                    Yours Truly,
                              Marina